This picture was taken on vacation last week.
I didn't take alot of pictures of myself or with family because I was ashamed of how I looked and every time someone took a pic of me I would pick out every single thing I hated.
Some days I feel super confident and then I leave my house and it's just a flood of negativity. "Why don't I look like her?, Why isn't my stomach flatter?, why are my hips so big?, Why do I have a double chin? Noone will ever love me like this, the type of guys I'm into would never date a fat woman like me,
Why am I not what society thinks is perfect or beautiful?" Self love is something that I struggle with everyday and I know I am not alone. We all have something we want to change or are trying to but just aren't where we want to be right now.
But every day we get up and we try. And that's what counts because sister you are beautiful and the only person that should matter to is YOU.
I was devastated. Being told that I wasn’t the candidate they were looking for was a blow that reinforced my “you’ll never be enough” lie that I continued to believe about myself. This didn’t just happen to me on sports teams, but for leadership positions and jobs that I really wanted as well. .
Eventually, I learned to just “play it safe” and only go out for things I knew I could be successful at. I waited for people to come to me, I didn’t take the initiative, and I didn’t put myself out there where I could be turned down. .
This also played a role in my self-confidence. It didn’t help when I was told I said “umm” or “like” 🤦🏼♀️ too many times during a speech. Or when I was the last one to be picked for a role in a speaking part because I lacked the confidence and eloquence. All of these experiences continued to hinder me from using my gifts and talents that God gave me.
Even as I’m typing this I’m thinking “No one is going to want to read this”. Or “why even bother”. But here is where the enemy wants us. He wants us to shrink down and play it safe. To not go for those lengthy goals, where if God doesn’t show up, it’s eminent failure. But that’s not the life that we are called to live friends. .
Our pastor spoke on the story of Gideon this past Sunday. And I love this story from the Bible because it’s exactly how our God works. He takes Gideons 300 men and defeats an army of 135,000 (that’s a ratio of 450:1 😱) - basically, they win because God was on their side. There’s no other way to dice it. .
This is the way I have decided I want to live my life. Not by standing by waiting for an opportunity to come to me, but by taking leaps of faith and asking the God of the Universe to show up on my behalf. When I would look at the possibilities that were out their for me, I only saw my limiting abilities and talents. Now, I see that with God, my possibilities are endless! .
I remember how good I felt when I got to my goal weight. However, I let someone plant a negative seed in my life. This person questioned my weight loss and wanted to know if it was on purpose. I said, "Of course, it was on purpose!" I had the Instagram feed to prove it. But that question latched on to my fears and anxiety about dying at an early age. I thought, "Maybe I should see if I could put on a few pounds." I started eating foods that I cut out of my diet. I began eating sugary foods again. Slowly the weight came on and just like that, I was overweight again. I kept saying I was going to "get back to it", but there was always something. I make better food choices when I am focused on my workout. Thanks to @bodyweightandbootyshake for all the classes when I came to Spokane. It was what I needed. 💕I like to be accountable, so Instagram has been the perfect tracking method for me. So, here I go again. Day 1 of 30. #backtobasics
Choose to do what makes you happy! 😁
For me— I love LOVE. I love DOGS. And I love HELPING OTHERS. Boom 💥 combine them all and what do you get? Furever & Fur Always- Wedding Day Dog Care @fureveralways! A company born from scratch by two best friends with nothin’ but dream & determination. Hi @t_arana1126! Here we are two years later and it’s still only the beginning of failures and successes! 🐶💍
I’m super impatient (cough cough character defect cough cough) & was like I want a zillion inquires right NOW or that means we’re not successful. Like on day 2. HAHAHA, you can say it... “Tehya calm the F down”!🤣 Tiff said it to me- thanks girl! That’s why we make a good team! But that is not how success works. HELLLLO- duh, Teh! 🤪 Our company started from the bottom- countless emails, infinite networking events, stepping out of our comfort zone, reaching out to strangers on Instagram, late nights, meetings & research, days where we felt like failures, days where we felt on top of the world. This is also known as WORK!!! 👯♀️👋 HI!
Things don’t happen magically! I mean it would be nice if that’s how it worked but we don’t have our genie 🧞♂️ waiting on our call! Unless you out there @willsmith— we here & we ready! 😂
Put in the work and great things will start to happen! No matter what you’re doing— starting a new business; working out; eating right; making a commitment to make time for your loved ones; writing that blog; whatever 👏 you 👏 want 👏 to pursue! Yes, some days will be hard. And yes, some days will be freakin great! But how are you ever gonna know unless you try!? 🤷♀️
Kemarin bener2 tantangan buat saya datang ke #gym . Karena siang harinya #haid baru dimulai. Biasanya tenaga saya tuh drop. Itu memang tantangannya. Saya selalu latihan sesuai jadwal yang sudah dibuat bersama pelatih2, kecuali saya bener2 sakit/drop seperti 2 minggu lalu. Menurut saya, menjalankan jadwal sesuai kesepakatan dengan pelatih itu salah satu bentuk komitmen dan konsisten yang harus saya terapkan di perjalanan ini. Selain itu kita jg menghargai pelatih karena sudah memblock waktu untuk kita.
Nah enaknya pakai PT kita bisa info tentang kondisi saat itu, jadi latihan bisa jalan terus tapi disesuaikan dengan kitanya. Setelah saya rutin gym, ini adalah haid yang ke 6x sejak bulan Maret 2019. Setiap haid saya tetap latihan biasa. Perlahan progress tubuh saya meningkat khususnya ketika latihan pas haid. Ketika pertama kali lagi haid, dan saya tetap gym, latihan ga bisa dilakukan maksimal. Hanya 1 jam 20 menit karena tubuh saya bener2 drop. Mungkin karena setelah 4 tahun total saya stop haid, jadi tubuh masih kaget dengan kondisinya. Perlahan tapi menurut saya ada progess, dgn latihan rutin, tiap bulan walaupun kondisi haid, stamina saya naik. Sampai tadi malam saya mampu menyelesaikan waktu 2 jam. Kurang lebih sama dgn yang saya habiskan dalam kondisi normal.
Mungkin ada yang mikir, kok saya maksakan diri saya untuk tetap latihan? Well, saya rasa sudah cukup waktu malas-malasan dan lalai selama ini hingga berat badan 160 kg, saya sudah rasain masalah dengan PCOS dan stop haid selama 4 tahun dan saya tau rasanya bergerak terbatas krn #obesitas 🙏 Sekarang saatnya saya harus berubah. Dan harus dipaksa dari diri sendiri. Karena memulai dan menjalankan semua ini bukan hal yang mudah. Pelan2 saya merubah mindset, menjadikan semua ini adalah kebutuhan. Jika sudah kebutuhan, maka menjadi kebiasaan & pola hidup. Jadi ga ada lagi perasaan terpaksa.
Selamat menjelang weekend teman2 semua... 😊 Semangat selalu....
So I know most of you guys know me as the actor guy and it may seem like my music came out of left field. I just want everyone to know that in the music I create I want to inspire and uplift people. I started writing music as a way of therapy for myself and my only hope is that it can be healing for others as well. There will certainly be more to come. #music#myjourney#reason#singer#songwriter#artist @damiankeyes1
@keto_in_pearls Keto Chicken Nuggets with a side of fresh green beans (topped with some @chefshamy butter). I just tossed them both in the air fryer @350 for 10 mins. The chicken nuggets were fully cooked and the green beans were raw.
Not pictured dipping sauces: @litehousefoods jalapeno ranch @ghughessugarfree bbq sauce
One of my favorite moves from this program so far. The #firecracker 💥
I would’ve never been able to do this move when I first started my fitness journey and that’s okay. A lot of people message me and say “well I can’t do those moves” & they immediately assume they can’t join me. .
Everyone has to start somewhere and not everyone is going to be at the same level as you or on the same journey as you. The only thing that matters, is that you decide to start. If the first thing you tell yourself is “I can’t do that” ,then you’re already putting yourself down and setting yourself up to fail unintentionally. .
The great thing about the programs I do, is that they’re awesome for EVERYONE. Doesn’t matter what size, shape, form, fitness level, height, weight, whatever! They work for anyone and everyone, plus there are always multiple modifiers to follow when you can’t do a specific move. .
Start telling yourself that you CAN do something, instead of assuming you can’t. It may take you awhile to get there (like me), but that’s what the journey is all about. .
I gave up caring what people thought of me a long time ago. Everyone wants to be liked but the reality is, not everyone is going to like you. The world is judgmental and harsh....
It's also beautiful and full of possibility!✌
I finally got "job stoppers" today. After years of thinking about how others would think.. I did what I wanted. Me. My. I. Mandy. This chick. (I mean my husband was cool with it;) Love it❤
This journey is my own. Its not yours or Judy's.
Happy to have you here but save your opinions for the manager, Karen. (Just dont tell my mom ;)
Almost 3 years no tattoos. Lots of catching up. #thisis40#myjourney#Mandy #barefoothippiehomesteading #farmgirl#mybohofarm#tattooedmama#farmlife
So I had a follow up appointment with my doctor as I am dropping weight really quickly without going on a diet or excersing.
I am still eating breakfast lunch and dinner but I have cut out excess sugar and junk food.
I have been fairly stressed and usually I eat chocolate.
The doctor and I came to a conclusion.
The virus/stress and the tablets I'm on are all contributing factors to my weight loss.
I am good to continue losing weight like this but once I get close to the goal weight he has set I have to eat a little more 😁
😮Easy system for any to follow ... & get results you will feel ...🙂🙂💪🏼💪🏿❗❗👏🏾👏🏾 Well done Kelly 👏🏻
When I got started I only used the three core products, I gave them a full eight weeks to fill the nutritional gaps in my body. The three core products are what made all of this change happen, along with better eating choices, lots of water and a positive attitude. They are so simple to fit in the first 30 minutes of my day and they give my body exactly what it needs. I’ve played around with a few of the other products but I have always kept the 1, 2, 3 basics; vitamins, Lifestyle Mix and DFT, a consistent and at the core of my journey.
It gave me energy, it gave me try, it gave me hope, it gave me my life!
Reposted from @resultswiththrive
I heard this baby needed a home so today our house grew by 4 more paws 🐾 and a whole lot more spunk! Meet Tigger, AKA Tiggy...4 months old today and 3.7 pounds of pure energy 💕I promise he’s our last one, but Ok you can officially call me a cat lady now 🐈
One day late, but please don't mind Pak....😘
Coz we have all the time in our rest of life kan?
So... Kemana kita berikutnya? Kalo Dora kudu buka peta, kita cukup buka Google Maps kan yak?
Sehat-sehat yah Pak. Biar kita bisa selalu melangkah bersama, jalan bersama.
~ 🐲👑The QUEEN’S SOLITUDE 👑🐲~ You are in a deep state of celestial alchemy. You are finding your way home to the deepest truths and integrity of your galactic Queen’s soul. These last lunations - the Covenant Eclipses and the Lion’s Gate portal - have delivered you to the beginning of your next Gaian incarnation. You have died to your old self and now you begin again, on a new timeline, a new Path, a Path of full remembrance.
This Path is the Royal Road. It is the path of authenticity and integrity, love and power. There is no other choice now but to be fully yourself, all your masks and modern manners gone. You must marry your primal soul to your celestial ehigh Self, and always follow the way laid out by this Divine Union. Do you feel how the time for forgetting is finished? Do you feel how your full-throttle joyous sovereignty is so needed for the future generations to thrive?
In the next week (through the New Moon on 30 August) while the Lion’s Gate moon wanes, get on the back of the Lion that walked with you this summer. The one who ushered you onto your new timeline, onto your Royal Road. Allow her the freedom to take you deep into the forest glades of your soul and descend into the purity within. Clarify and cleanse, receive and rest. When it is time for a Queen to sit on her throne, she needs time alone, time down and time to just be. She must center herself in her own true essence again and again. Solitude is the space in which your royal essence will concentrate into true Queenhood. Only from this place can you take your seat at the table with other cosmic Queens and Kings. You have received a whole new incarnation this summer season. New Queen Codes, new Life. You are meant to be an embodiment of God’s majesty, choose to trust yourself and trust the new life you have been delivered into.
The Original Cosmic Covenant of Love has been restored and as Queen you will serve it with your whole heart.
You are loved. 🐲🕊Dragon Queen Love from Avalon, Holly Rhiannon Seraphine Morgana💙🐲 @awakeningavalonschool 💜🙏🏽