Why is it we spend so much time focusing on the reasons behind other people’s actions?
Why do we rely so heavily on explanation?
If I used the time I spent on analysing situations and reactions into being more productive and positive I’m sure I would be on cloud 9.
Is it just me, or is this a normal routine for most? Is it due to our lack of self worth and self esteem?
I always find myself returning to self criticism, self doubt and self destruction.
Is it because I’m fat? Or used to be fat? Is it because I’m ugly, is it because I’m flawed.....?
These things go round and round in my head continuously, eating away at my emotions.
So how do you break the cycle? How do you push those negative poisonous thoughts from your life?
For me I have to take a walk, I have to become grounded with normality and interact with those around me that are just living without any worry or concern or obsession with how I’m feeling.
I have to re-align myself with the world, take a breath and know that I can not control others, in their thoughtlessness or rejection. I can ONLY control my own path, my own feelings and my own future.
It’s never easy, but being able to recognise this will help me to place one foot in-front of the other and get on with LIVING and not just existing.
Never rely on another person to give you happiness, fulfilment or love, if you can’t first find all of those things for yourself by yourself
Week 15 post op - day off #whatsonmyplate#15weekspo#89gmsprotein
Today was a fluids day - I was feeling really dehydrated so most of my meals were in liquid form. Back to usual programming tomorrow
Breakfast: Skinny vanilla latte with Peptipro, 8 West-bix bites with lite milk ☕️🥣
Lunch: Lge McCafe skinny vanilla latte with Peptipro ☕️
Dinner: Shake with skim milk, frozen pineapple & peptipro 🥤
Snacks: brisket, 3 Maltesers
Can't believe I have been married to this handsome guy for 7 days now! Even at my heaviest, he has always told me how beautiful I was, even though I never saw it. He has sat with me through countless mental break downs. He never acts annoyed when I complain about missing certain foods or when I tell him about a new diet that I read about that day. He always makes an effort to learn about the things that I am interested in. He is my rock, my cheerleader, and my biggest supporter. #hubby#marriage#wlscommunity#wlscommunityvsg#motivation#weightlossjourney#weightlosstransformation#vsg
5 kilos ago 🔥 I have done a lot of thinking over the last couple of weeks about this journey and the whole process that we undertake when we decide to have WLS. It is a transformation that has honestly touched every part of my life. am 12 years post lap band and nearly 10 years post lap band removal and I am 14 months post Gastric Bypass.
One thing that has grown through this process is my acceptance and care of myself. I have come to have a huge amount of respect and love for my body. I am thankful to my larger self for believing that a future without morbid obesity was possible. I am thankful that my loose skin is no longer filled with the results of years of self loathing and hatred. I am grateful to me for walking away from all of that baggage in my past. I feel like a hopeful part of me managed to grope my way through a darkened sea of pain and unlock the door to a new future.
The hard part is that some days it is hard to walk through that door. The world beyond the darkened sea of emotional pain is as scary and foreign to me as any place that I have ever been. I am learning how to live my life as a thin person- It IS different and some days I still feel like I don't belong. The battle now is as much in my emotions and in my careful monitoring of my malabsorption issues as it is in my day to day food choices. In losing over 90 kilos I have fallen, in the eyes of some, into the too thin category. Comments to that effect are just as cruel as fat taunts ever were. 14 Months post bypass my life is still evolving and I still feel like I am transforming from the inside out. #gastricbypasssurgery#skinremovalsurgery#wlscommunity#wls
I'm in pre-op now! I told my wife that they're literally going to have to have someone assigned to hold my giant boobs away from my stomach. I think I'll be going to second base with a surgical assistant today. 😂